LET GO;/

Saturday, June 18, 2005

well. all good things must come to an end. after all that we`ve gone through during the last three and a half years, it came to a screeching halt yesterday. it was like a sudden jolt to reality. to think that i will have nothing to do with redcross from now on. what a thought. heh. so here`s my memories.

secone past by as a blur. seriously. i have totally no recollections about it except for several stuff i guess. i remember sn being the first ever i/c for the squad and im the first once felicia snr`s batch took over. that day was -. but it made me change. no more attitude problem. yep. okay fine. not as much larh. talentime was like a big disaster in the making. para-para. gosh. it was a big flop. had so much fun though. camp was another -. billabong. yea. i remember our group winning smth. dont remember for what category though. project rc love. the songs. heh. most of us couldnt make it. ended up we sticked the lyrics on our backs and the ma`ams joined us. ha. super funny. :))

sectwo. our most memorable year ever. started off with the orientation fancy fd. backstreet`s boys song. practising in the classroom. went off for course. FDIC. resolute, disipline, excel. yea. the course motto. then came fd competition. very disapointing. i remembered us staying back in 2g1 classroom and thinking what the heck to give to the ma`ams then. finally agreed on shirts. then came the next issue. big or small. ha. the little shirts turned out nice. poc was full of emotions. before the announcement of the new com, me and jh HAD to go mobil to buy drinks. came into the room looking ultra shocked. we certainly did cry buckets. gave the letter and presents to them. never did expect them to cry too. and so, the new committee took over. changes. perhaps we just weren`t prepared for it. the nicknames. heh. apple orange pear was kind of a disaster. everything just kept accumulateing before that day came. we broke down. it was a few days before camp. hasyimah nudging me to tell why we`re crying and me telling her that i cant unless they dont mind any colourful language. the letter and our disgusting english. its not fully mine. i insist on it. them wanting to pump before us. camp. came during the second day. it was patetic. 6 sec twos. then bh had to go home, leaving me as the i/c for whisky. being the day i/c wasnt that horrible. but having to be alert at all times and it being so long for me was just plain -. we had nice time too during camp. esp during the rck quiz. the name of the groups. basketball and satay stick. mwahahaha. private joke between us and some other people. ha. i guess they didnt realise it. evac lesson was hilarious. some funky music came blaring out of the pa system when we were practising field signals. ha. talentime again. this time round we did grease and the edison song. plus songs. my dance partner: yaoyueqi. practising in g1 classroom after we cleared the tables and chairs away. crapping and laughing away. me ponning the bio thingy and stayed with the c2 ppl. then had to buy for the project rc love. grocery shopping. :)) it was a whole lot of fun.

sethrees. we made a pact to pull everyone back. i guess it didnt work like we thought it will. but nonetheless, we tried. ha. joined syf. ended up being the only one for the marching contigent. great memories. the ghost story session at 4s1 classroom. then the interview. everything seems so real. after the poc being postponed for so long, it was finally us taking over. the room. ha. had spring cleaning. the room was like super dusty then. and the cupboards were and still stinks. all the com meetings. me and yq falling asleep in the room and suddenly woke up at five in the afternoon. all the crap. NAT CAMP. the aces day workout. ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE. :)) camp proposal. and the disastorous camp. talentime. ENIGMA. had so much fun choreographing and learning the steps.

secfours. faced with a problem. yea. the five-day plan. seems short. SQUAD TEE. yea. we kill, we dont heal. :)) it was like a big mess. fancy fd was so screwed at first. but it work out fine. skl was a bitch. us laughing outside the general office when the list for the secones who are enrolled in the cca came out. yea. found out that we were allocated the foyer on thursday. coming up with suggestions on what to do. community singing every thursday. stupid idea. and finally yesterday came. we stepped down. yip being her usual self. ended up talking outside the school. shocking revelation. had dinner at macs. that is if you consider apple pie and coke as dinner. and finally went home. it ended. well, we are now officially the seniors.

adapted from shazwani's blog; www.impersonate.blogspot.com

ah yes she covered almost everything that I've forgotten. Para Para Sakura in Sec One, where we actually thought we were pretty good when the truth was.. HAHA! And Project RC love with the lyrics pasted to our backs. hahaha:D oh my goodness that was the worst. And at the beginning of Sec Two, the fancy footdrill(: Larger than life. -smiles.

And how can I forget basketball and satay stick!? our favourites hahaha. plus mingjiao snr actually drew the pictures out and we were practically howling with laughter. -private joke la. And the evac lesson. the "turn around" field signal. The funky music suddenly blaring out of the PA system. yes yes(: HAHA and talentime again. Did grease and some edison. AND my partner was nur shazwani nordin who keeps suaning me. I knw I cnt dance LA!((: hahaha. and me, jh and vera sang some soapy S.H.E song again and got third hahaha.

Yea the pact we made. We really tried. God knows we did): Sigh. Some things are really beyond our control. Yea shazie I remember that day we were so tired and I was cramming firstaid into my head for FA com and we both fell aslp. I on the sofa and you, on the bed. HAHA. Btw, I agree that the cupboard stinks and we really cannot get rid of the smell hahahaha(: And I cnt believe I forgot aerobics. The last minute of it all. How we went for auditions using some very lame toybox tarzana and jane song because that was the only CD that worked. and then staying in the room thinking of spastic steps and dragging the teachers' table away and trying out. Yes, ACCIDENTLY IN LOVE!(:

Suddenly I'm feeling so estatic at rediscovering and recalling all these memories that were in my head somewhere but I have forgotten about it somehow.

And I'm missing everything more and more):

Friday, June 17, 2005

haha this is going to be a super long entry, and probably only makes sense to RedCross people(:

A Walk down Memory Lane;
Four Years in Red Cross

Year 2002/2003; We were Sec Ones then and our squad started off with Twenty-four people. Twenty-four strangers to be excat(: And then later, the number decreased over the years, finally leaving the fourteen of us.

I still remember when felicia snr's batch took over, they constantly told us to say 'hello' when we meet each other in a bid to force us to know each other, and we did. The childish us followed excatly as we were told- to wave our hands right in front of our squadmate's faces and make sure we get a reply/: I remember them scolding us when we ran off all by ourselves after grabbing our waterbottles, not sharing our water with our other squadmates whose waterbottle got confiscated, haha all these seriously seemed so far away now. I remember them drilling the words "All for one, one for all" into our heads, and slowly, we changed from complete strangers to good friends. We gave each other nicknames and no longer called each other by our 'real' name. Shazwani became shaz and then shazie; benghui became ah beng ah(: And then later we named each other after animals-.-. Jiahui the frog, me the dodo bird (/:), Beng the penguin, Sakina the lion cub, Zhixin the monkey, Tiffy the chiobu, Singning the seahorse, Enli the owl, Shazie the elephant, Na'imah the deer and Hashy the fish(: hahaha it sounds so spastic but was a result of extreme boredom(: Under gekling senior's batch, we really bonded alot as a squad and became the best of friends(: All the most memorable memories included footdrill accreds, where we were scared out of our wits and gekling snr, with her arm full of books, was coming out of the chem lap and stopped to clarify our doubts. Her simple gesture then really told us how much she cared(: And then there was Footdrill competition, where we lost even after we thought we had put in so much effort. Our tears. Then Camp at the temp block. Ghost stories at the basketball court. Who killed ah-gong. and trust walk. and then all the pumpings from camp appraisal. Other pumpings that bonded us and taught us to endure. The squad meetings we had ever so frequently.

Then it was time for them to leave. How we pondered over what we wanted to get for them. All those weird ideas like video taping down us trying to act like them/: How we tried out acting by saying all the ma'am's pet phrases. "I don't want to repeat myself like a spoiled recorder". And then finally deciding to print small little T-shirts. The day they stepped down, the tears we shed. The letter that we wrote from our hearts. Us sitting a the netball court and talking and crying about how much we will miss them. Gekling senior's lightbulb and Felicia senior's Precious Thoughts card.

Year 2003/2004: We had our new ma'ams(: With Xinhui and Zihua senior as our new level heads. And in Sec Two/Three, it was the time that we really really close. The area at the miniforum(: The grassy area behind it where we faithfully water the plants HAH. The footdrill lessons. With Xh senior and her waterbottle and Zh senior and her waterbottle. The one that we were learning impek and Xh and Zh snr kept putting the broom across our path but it doest seem to block us HAHA. that stupid guy with that stupid jade earring. And also the fd lesson during camp where the ma'ams put grass and flowers in our hair and made us command by Romeo and Juliet:D The Juliets with the flowers and the Romeos with grass(: hehe. The evac lessons, where we started telling ghost stories and accidently scared zh snr in the process. The RCK lessons at midnight where we are almost copying notes with our eyes close and our words going all slanted and the one where we played some quiz and had to stick out our tongues, make a 'ting' sound and hop onelegged to the board to scirbble our answers at top speed. hahaha so funny la! And then there was Zihua snr's birthday, and we all went to beng's house the day before to bake cookies for her. How we laughed in the kitchen while mixing flour and butter and all that stuff, first with some splatter and then with our hands:P And then we started making a Zihua senior's face cookie and were so happy when it turned out still looking recognisable. Oh yea and we were 'tasting' and 'testing' like nobody's business and saying how delicious our cookies were and that we should go open a chain of cookie stalls and call it Famous sth. HAHA. damn funny. And then we tried to sing bday songs in different tunes but we laughed so hard everything sounded the same in the end. Then there was also the hard parts. Like the times when we broke down and cried. apple orange pear with me and jiahui crying to each other at two in the morning cursing our printers. There was also the combined outing to East Coast with TKGS and my group won the sandcastle building competition! And all the knight and princess game which we were a little blur about and the freeze and melt. And then, it was also their turn to leave. Tears again. and how scared we were to take over. And how much we will miss them.

Sec Three/ Four. We were the NCOs. The excitement of the first time we stepped into the forbidden room. Howweird it suddenly seemed to have our room, to be able to do away with our bottles and files(: How we went to the pasar malam at Redhill to buy a whole lot of food as our Red Cross Room supply, which ran out so quickly that we no longer bothered to refill it haha. We took photos on our first committee meeting(: super happy. Then things became a routine. Committee meetings every monday with all of us sitted around the table, on the bed, on the sofa. When some of us who end lessons at 3.30 get to the room, those who end much earlier are dozing on the sofa or at the table doing hmk. How we are always greeted by "Wah you are so early horhhhh" whenever some of us were late, always with the same sheepish expression. Everytime we change in the room, there are always like shouts of "dont look ah!" and replies of "You got nothing to look at la". Yea this happens to me the most(: Shaz shouting at us "Can your clean the room!?" and looking at me and jh with an exasperated look and point at the cupboard- "your books ah!". Oh Oh and the first time the door was repaired and we were so unfamiliar that we push the door with the same amt of strength and end up almost face-first on the floor. All the stupid things we do. Laughing like crazy over the silliest things. Bitching about teachers and whatever worth bitching about. The stupid zhixin always stopping at mid-motion and we try all ways to jot her back while laughing like mad. And always the "eh you got key?" and "Aiya you go up and take laaaa -pokespokes" when all of us are too lazy to run up to take sth. Then there was the time when we scribbled a reminder of "Call Yip" on the board and when we returned, saw to our horror that Mrs Yip has entered the room herself and left a msg on the board for us. HAHA. Camp. BBQ. such a nightmare. Sharing one hotdog for dinner/: The seniors ending up bbqing for us. How the terrible thing happened after camp and we sat in the room until nearly ten, just talking. And the paranoid us got all scared about Little Anne because of sth that I casually said and we all screamed and ran to pull open the door. hahaha. beng and our neighbours bringing food for us(: Talentime too. We played our CDs on the radio and sang and sang and sang until all our squadmates groan when they hear our starting music(: And we ended up singing in the toilet. Practising at RedHill mrt station before finals. Coming in first for both categories(: As NCOs, the cadets greeting us whenever we walk pass the miniforum before activity. Us telling them to quickly get out of the school while glaring at lingam. Lessons with them in the classrooms. Freeze and melt where we could not find some of the Sec Twos. The baby photo game that was so funny and lame. All these have ended today.

And now, back to the present. One year have passed in a blink of an eye, and now we are the ones stepping down. No longer the NCOs. No more Red Cross. No more planning activities and thinking of stupid games to play. No more activities on Thursdays and Fridays. No more wearing our muftis. and No more hiding in the room): Today was the last day we could refer to the cadets as our cadets. and the last day we could to refered to as their ma'ams.

Haha okay enough of that. Its time to thank people. Firstly, I really want to thank our seniors for being such great ma'ams. You all were the ones who inspired us and showed us the way. Yea and of course, my squadmates, who are probably the people I love most, the people who have seen me at my best(okay maybe not) and at my worst (Yea definitely). Also, Thank you cadets, for making life as an NCO fun(: I love you guys alot alot and I cn't say how much I'll miss you all. -HUGS

ah okay shall end of here for now. Will add more when I remember(:

Guess what, its like two in the morning and I'm still baking a cake for my dad with my sister/: BTW, happy birthday to my Dad!(:

Thursday, June 16, 2005

hey(: haven't been blogging for 3 days I think. just to recap briefly.

Monday. Had our last activity in Red Cross(: Was quite nostalgic for us cus we had it in the Saturday format. Like fall in at 0745 and dismissal at ard 1330(: Just like the old times. Had footdrill first and took the Sec Ones with jiahui. then after that had POC rehearsal followed by FirstAid. Last firstaid lesson ever with the Sec Twos and Threes. Wasn't very serious la and LEE ENLI left a hole in my little nut's head cus she yanked out the entire string! GRR. HAHAHA. Poor little nut! OH yea and the rest took pictures of my little nut being murdered with a scissors! hahaha gross la! can totally see what kind-hearted and peaceloving squadmates I have:P totally. After that went to cine for lunch. ate ljs and went to shop around. Wanted to watch Mr and Mrs Smith but thr tickets were sold out. Took neoprints instead(: At the same place where we took during our very first activity. Time really passes so fast la:( Yep then I left first. Decided to go for a swim cus I could sense some cramps coming and I totally hate that feeling. Nth much after that.

Tuesday. Went with yunjia to huixin's house to watch movies. Watched the cool guy:D, windstruck, and wishing stairs haha. The cool guy is still super nice and I'll totally never get tired of the show. Me and huixin cried when we watched windstruck while yunjia laughed at us cry. What an ass. Wishing stairs still freaks me out and although I've watched it thrice there are still some scenes that I've never dared to watch hahaha. Was practically hiding behind the pillow half the time while huixin's brother narrated out the story and hugged his bolster. so cute(: Yea ate alot too. A huge pack of grape flavoured nata de coco, a giant pkt of twisties, one pkt of soupy snacks (which sucks), chilli crab cup noodles(: and chocolates. Eww. Yep went home after that.

Wednesday/ Today. Slacked like hell): and racked my brains over POC. SIGHS.

Tmr is POC le): Hai. Our last day as ma'ams. Our last time being in the room. Our last official day with our cadets. I'm going to miss this so so much.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

I lie awake,
I drive myself crazy,
drive myself crazy,
thinking of you.
Made a mistake
I let you go baby,
I drive myself crazy,
wanting you the way I do.

Oh man I'm so addicted to this super old song by n`sync. Dammit nice!(:

Today was the first day I had during this holidays that I have got all to myself and I spent the entire day being a couch potato/: How wise when I've got a huge pile of incomplete hmk. Damn. Yep first I watched all my old recorded f.r.i.e.n.d.s episodes which was super funny:D Oh man I'll totally never get tired of them(: Then I watched A kindred spirit and got all worked up over Xiao An and finally I watched Iron Ladies just now. Was pretty nice too but a little bewildering. haha. Yikes so now I'm feeling rightfully guilty.

Red Cross tmr(: Our last activity as the in-charges:( Kind of having mixed feelings now. Like I knw its time to hand over but I've enjoyed myself so much in Red Cross and so much of my time is spent in it that now I'm stepping down, I'm going to be superduper free. Plus, I'll miss the room so much! Going to write a long long entry of all those memories one day(:

Can't wait for tuesday! Going to huixin's house with kohyunjia to watch movies all day long((: BEST OF ALL, we are watching cool guy again! Omg my shuai guy!((: