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Saturday, January 08, 2005

recapp.

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campfire. It started raining just before our item laaa=/so sickening. Although it rained for only about one minute, they shifted the Sec Ones up to the auditorium anyway. Anw it was really chaotic cuz the Sec Ones took up more than just the boundary of the auditorium, and left like ard 2/3 of the space for us to do our drills. like wth pls. Anw everyone, good job for handling things so well(: I'm really proud of you all. Anw I was like damn angry with that asshole pls. fcuk her la. DAMN S-K-L. she can just go and die and I really feel like slapping her really hard in the face and kicking her square in her ass. DAMN HER LA. I think I really had trouble keeping myself from reaching for her fat neck and tearing and ripping her into pieces that bitch. DAMN HER. I controlled until I had angry tears la dammit. Anw she really got to me and shaz and we were both dammit pissed off la I'm seriously gonna diao her the next time she so unluckily cross my path dammit. can't believe I wasted my tears on her that asshole she had the nerve to look down on us freakk. ARGH fcuk her fcuk her la. And them too. oh but thanks to the girl who helped cleared a path for us. really appreciated it.

Sorry about the language but its damn irritating la I can't stand her damn attitude and ugly face. and the worst thing is she got me crying that pissed me off most and now I'm even pisser cuz I wasted a paragraph on my blog scolding her. dammit dammit.

Our performance was I dont know but we gave it our best shot la. It was really unexpected and everything. and Its damn sad now that I think of it cuz we really started our drills from scratch and there were so many times we just wanted to give it up): but we dint and everyone put in so much effort and..I dont know how to say la its not wasted but it could be better. then maluated myself cuz of the cpr thing. people were laughing when I carried little anne out la.. make me laugh also and I was supposed ot be serious pls. hahaah. okay anw cheered with the cadets. think at that point of time we were sort of really united and everything(: feels great to be shouting together with one voice. cheered for the ncc. went mobil. went home.

It does not matter what others think of us; as long as we believe in ourselves

`08012005
our last talentime. went to school early to practise and stuff. that irritating lingam was totally pissing us off haha. changed and everything. was rushing like mad cuz we got to leave school at 1230. we were like mad cuz all of us were putting on makeup at the road beside the busstop there. damn langbei=/ that vera was like trying to put mascara for me and I've never applied such things in my entire life and I couldnt stop blinking and she was dead pissed with me=/ eiks. haha. yep then went off to campsite. the sec twos and threes went to present their skit while we went for our song items. was so scared pls): quite screwed. then was dance. also not any better. its like damn disappointing la but whatever it is we tried our best la. left campsite. was singing all the way to the busstop and on the bus. madness. were like reminising the past talentimes we had with the snrs. its so unbelievable this will be our last): went for dinner at cine. yep then went home le.

We love Us.

Thursday, January 06, 2005

ah can't believe I'm blogging now when I still have loads of homework to do=/ today. the lessons were quite alright la; tuesday's timetable was counted as the best except now kwan decided to shift our wednesday 3-3.30 period to tuesday after assembly. like how disgusting is that pls. shes such a !@#$%. and I still havent done my two zhuo wen!! shall hand in next week la. hopes she forgets about it tmr. had talentime rehearsal after assembly at 2.30. was like rushing ard like mad cuz got this briefing at 2 abt campfire and I have to find that mr loh to tell him that I cannot finish collecting the holiday assignments and he was like looking so annoyed=l okay lorh. had no choice but to tell him that 13.2 will be in today but only half the class handed up. he's really gonna kill me cuz I also din't hand in ahhh. yea dance prac. changed into our costumes and I was so sad cuz my pants were so loose and the dance required us to jump? wth. and that vera is really an expert in putting makeup man; all of us were like blur like anything and she expertly applied all the eye shadow and stuff. that woman was like laughing at me cuz I was using the eyeliner pencil to anyhow draw and ended up looking like I was punched. bleahh. anyway makeup really stinks=X kind of screwed up our dance abit la. dont know but we were feeling scared? yep then rushed to rgs to get the gloves from amdis. wah she really saved our lives man(: THANKS AMDIS!

uh okay better get back to my hmk. ta.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

dead tired now pls. slept for like less than three hours yesterday trying to complete my work=/ tskk. I'm going to sleep at 9 today(:

recapp time.
Monday was first day of school. was quite okay I guess. found out that our english teacher is Ms Azlin. Anw shes nice(: hohos. and she was like "this class (4S1) holds very good memories for me, I hope it will continue this way". haha. okayss. yep cant remember much. had dance prac for a while after school. was quite sad over some stuffs.

Tuesday went to school very early. was shocked that the ncc banner was like burnt down=/ when I saw the guy sweeping up the black things I thought someone had a bbq and dint clear up or something. then mrs lee and the ncc ppl came. shocking la. then our banner also kanna!): so sad can. yesterday had fancy fd practice also. nowadays I leave house at 6 and return home at 6 plus 7=/ deprived of sleep la.

yepp today. had some badge pinning ceremony rehearsal. like that also wanna rehearse=/ haha. Anw the Sec One I am supposed to pin the badge on is quite cute one. christy or something. haha. uh lessons was like so longg. was like falling aslp but I din't. my new year resolution okays(: Anw during chem I was feeling quite scared le cuz I completely forgot everything about all the ionic equations and stuff. horrible. had orientation campfire rehearsal after that. left halfway through amaths((: wahaha. yayy. then went out to buy the poles for our dance.

tmr gg to have talentime full dress rehearsal(: hope everything turns out alright(: yea.

I wanna sleep!

Monday, January 03, 2005

This feeling of utter helplessness

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Sometimes, even giving it your best is never enough.