LET GO;/

Saturday, July 10, 2004

"I admit it, I fall right in love with my kids. I worry about them and I start feeling like they're mine. And I always forget that they're just on loan. That they only love me for one year, then they move on and change and fall in love with their new teacher and bang- I'm history. Its sort of sad."

god I'm going to miss them so so much :(

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Our level heads
Its really stupid how time always cause this sort of heartache. Reading Zihua ma'am's letter really makes my mind rewind, then replay all the snippets of the funnest, funniest times we had shared with them, like a movie. Still remember uniform inspections, where Zihua and Xinhui ma'am will ask us why our socks are a bluish yellow instead of the white it was supposed to be. Then us groaning inwardly when we have to shift our badges up or down, left or right(: Us shoving the brick against the toilet door and changing right there into our full-u, with shouts of reminders at everyone not to look, and sarcastic replies of "aiyahh you have nothing to look at la" *laughs

Yes then theres the day when we all broke down, and wrote our letter of frustration and anger. Us sitting together in a circle at the rotunda, sorting and thrashing things out. Zihua ma'am's letter. The indian guy who kept looking at her. -smiless=D Romeo and Juliet during camp, us with leaves annd flowers in our hair- looking awful=l Us shaking with laughter when we command. Remember the footdrill lessons- yes that stupid indian guy with that lousy jade earring (hahaha!), the broom that Xinhui ma'am keep trying to put into our path when we were learning impec but to no avail, us with supressed smiles on our faces -quotes from zihua ma'am's letter=D, us muttering words out of the corner of our mouths to the person beside us then sometimes getting caught when we see the ma'ams looking at us with also a supressed smile, us shaking our legs to get some irritating fly off, all during their footdrill lessons, but theres no more, no more standing under the sun with them, no more Xinhui ma'am commanding, and her black waterbottle=(

Evacuation lessons, where we have the most fun with Zihua ma'am. Field signals, the music blaring out of the PA system and all of us laughing so hard, The 'turn back' field signal where we rotated only our finger so it looks erbs -.- =D, us carrying the stretchers and doing the handseats behind the temp block, the last evac lesson, zhixin flapping her arms frantically, trying to tell me it was " I love my squadmates". Us telling the story of 'The eye' during our 'break' -guilty smile. How we always looked forward to evac lessons and seeing Zihua ma'am- her smiles when we said something really rubbish, her tolerance of us, no more of that too=/

them talking to us at the mini forum, asking us about our studies, them telling us that we are slacking off, so many memories=l

Pt and circuit training, the knight and princess game=D, talentime, crez awards, ahhhh.

Yet out of all these, what I missed most the the most normal, most ordinary things we do at Red Cross. Sofia ma'am taking our attendance and showing us proudly that her attendance booklet has had a change of clothes- new wrapping paper, water parade, waiting to enter the classrooms with them waiting inside..

Thank you ma'ams, for giving us so so much, for making our Saturdays come alive, for letting us have something to look forward to at the end of the week, for giving us the chance to bond even closer in our squads. For all these, thank you. I love you guys.

~~Please tell me how you feel~~

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

today is a boringg dayy=l haha I think me, hx, bernice and denise were like all starving during recess. so hungry cann heh. den i pon chinese cause mdm kwan not there=D hee! stayed back after school to help with the class notice board deco haha. was damn farnie cause me and dawn were like cutting scapes out from postcards to paste on the board, then I was cuting out this condom look-a-like thingy and dawn cut out this "play it safe" slogan from one of the postcards. then we put it together and started laughing. haha so sick can but got educational purposes de wor!=P yep den we two were cutting out all the colourful little handprints, superr cute kay hehe=D Anw yinxi fell in love with this guy who is advertising g-strings. muahaha, yuck man=l yep then went out with shaz and beng to go order cake from bungawan solo. the auntie there is nice cause we spent about an hour there describing what kind of cake we want=D hehe. yea den finally done le, went home, was damn grumpy cuz i remembered tomorrow have the lousy mathsd test. YUCKS.

Monday, July 05, 2004

ahhhh sppiiidderrrmannnnn! -squeals*
hahaha so bimbo=D

Went out with jiahui, shaojian and zhixin todae to watch spiderman at cine. And it totally totally rockss!!=D Its like first rate cannn ahh I'm totally in love with peter parker=D so macho! -quotes from jiahui, hehs. yups then walked around, met yvonne (I think) from ULP and sharalyn! haha almost cannot recognise her when she called my name=l yups then jiahui and zhixin left, so me and shaojian went KAP to study. Met ruishan, sheryl and yuxiu. haha they three are like so super cute la=D yep study for awhile then went down to coldstorage le. me and sj were like some greedy people. keep walking up and down the sweets and biscuits section finding something to buy haha. In the end she bought a really funky kind of sweet and I bought warheads for my brother (and me also la cause we want to compete who can eat more at one time ha!). I'm so mature=D and so nice I cant stand it -egoego haha. okay I'm mad=D

lalalala -singss

dreams

Together with power, comes great responsiility

Sunday, July 04, 2004

hiess. was too tired to blog yesterdae so shall recap now=D

went for chinese listening in the morning. dreamt that I forgot all about going for listening and only remembered when I looked into the clock at 1230 hahaha. scary dream=P yups anw the paper was like some shit ugh=l but nvm its over=D hehe yep then met up with beng, zx and enx cause we got to go syf. went to eat at plaza sing bk. stupid zhixin and enli were like some lame shit, was laughing soo hard that I cannot stop haha. damn farnie cann=) yep then we went to hog the toilet to change into our full-u. yes right in the middle of plaza singapura we come strolling out in our full-u. so smart right? haha yep then walked to hq to report and stuff. yah syf duty was super tiring la, stand there for like 4 hours!? but was quite fun also la, met a new guy from tkss and did duty with him and amdis=) damn farnie lorh, was laughing like siao can haha. yep den we kept eating sweets to keep occupied=D so relieved when its over cause my boots are like killing my feet=l yah reached hq at about 8 plus, so late right heh.

feel so bad that we could not meet gl senior to go home cause have to go back by the hq bus but went to meet her at ps to eat kfc=D carn find shazie though=( haha was damn farnie again cause everyone dont seem to be in the right state of mind, esp enx. so poor gl senior had to endure all our nonsense=D hahahaha. yep den went home le, freaking tired.