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Saturday, May 29, 2004

hies. so not used to it. using my dad's laptop to blog now hehe. today went for first contact lesson at the redcross campsite. was okay la, nothing much to say de. going to be really really busy for the next week. Actually i think its quite exciting to work on the proposals la, but its really going to be tough:l anyway my group is quite nice, got 2 guys and 8 girls including me and we are in Bravo!! quite glad to keep myself busy also la, den i won't think too much. hee yeps. really tired now. tink i shall go sleep before typing out the nominal roles:) tata.

Btw singning and beng, both of you rock! hehe waited for us for like how long lorh. thanks man:) and zhixin ar, get well soon alright?:)

Thursday, May 27, 2004

My parents told me I am a failure, and I think so too.

yep school was okay. no mass run in the morning. left in the middle of lessons to do some stuffs for peer leader. had to re-compile the pl book for next year's peer leader training. missed amaths. yep din go for aerobics since we need to carry out our plan. Went for course instead but ponned half of it after taking attendance. Its like how wuliao I cannot stand it.

Got alot of things I want to type out but I dunch feel like now. I'm real real sad. Someone just kill me la.

ello:) hehe I'm happy today -all smiles. Why? cause xhma'am said that there MIGHT be a possibility that Poc is pushed backwards by one week. lalala:) is that good news or what? ONE MORE WEEK. This is equals to one more activity:) yippeee:D pray hardd everyonee:)

gosh I feel like I'm some despo freak or something. sheeshh. but nvm, I'm still happy:D

drafted out a letter for them during free period. Was thinking about them and all the times we had together that was funny and sweet and happy, and obviously all the rotten times too. Somehow the rotten parts seemed so minor now:/

Anyway, just want to wish everyone taking their chineseos all the luck in the world. Hope that whatever they learn will come out in the paper:) Good luck and all the best:) -hugZ-

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

hehe I borrowed my Dad's camera phone for the week, and its fantabulous. -all smiles.

Yep. Finally managed to d/l a suitable song from Kazaa for our aerobics workout. Dunno whether the others will find it suitable though since I seem to have weird taste=P hehe. Took me so long cause theres some freaking problems with cdburner. ohwells I'm relieved. At least thats one thing done.

Found out that if I keep myself busy I don't feel as shitty. Okay shall go find things to do.

Monday, May 24, 2004

boo. Sigh was talking to my ncc friend today. How I wish that our Poc is also in August:( This is so argh-ing, Why Why Why? I remember starting to dread their poc since like i wonder when, right after the time they were so nice and sweet? Which is like always? Does it always happen this way? People you really love stays with you only for a fleeting moment before disappearing forever? Is this to hurt you? Or simply make you treasure them more?

Okay i know I'm being selfish and getting all teary again. I hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it. Shut up Yueqi. And stop your damn crying.

:(

I'm going to change the topic. Another depressing one. Results.

Disgusting.

Okay. End of topic.

Went out with Jiahui, Shaz and Huixin after school. Was feeling damn hyper and kept doing my aerobics actions, but i guess Shaz was right, I was just trying to keep myself laughing so that the tears won't fall. I feel dead guilty that I am crying over them rather then my lousy shitty results. Anw, they went to cut hair together and i went to take my freaking passport photo which turn out really spastic, I mean, as usual. Returned to see a transformed Jiahui and Shaz!! both look chio:) so proud arh hehe. Unfortunately Huixin still looks the same:P -laughs. Yep then took 132 home, the freaking long journey only added to my sadness cause I had time alone. And time alone oon the bus means I'll think. And what I'm thinking of immediately switches to what has been dominating my thoughts. I mean, lousily put, I feel like I don't even have a chance to really say goodbye. Okay why the shit do my topics all link back to this? Arghh.

Yep, then my friend/senior called to scold me for my lousy results. Really really happy for the distraction. Anw i think she is so sensible and disciplined I cannot stand it. I am totally sure she won't just start weeping like I will. Okayy Yueqi just stop it will you?

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I wish I am still a little girl. Then maybe I can continue lying to myself that if i just believed hard enough and wished with all my heart and soul, time will truely stop.

I'm Pathetic

Sunday, May 23, 2004

Argh.

I can't sleep. Once i think about them going i can feel tears smarting in my eyes. Without them Saturdays are going to lose their spark. I am going to miss them so bad, every single one of them. I want to turn back time so that I would have a chance to treasure them more, to react differently, to show them just how much I love and respect them. I just wish time will stop, and the Saturday two weeks from now will never come.

We remember all the times we had together

redcross yesterday:)

so little sec 3s came. only me, jiahui, beng, sakina, shazwani, zhixin, and tiffany.

yep had evac lesson with zh ma'am first. was really fun:) zhixin is such a joker la, can't stand her=P hehe. lurvee evac lessons. can't believe that this was our last lesson with zh ma'm le -cries- den had footdrill la. was really uncomfortable cause we all really need to scratch ourselves badly. hehe. burst the blister on my big toe ouchh so had to fall out. peiting was like damn sweet la. she saw me looking pathetic without my socks and ran to get her medicine for me. ahh thanks man:) zh ma'am also real sweet la, gave me a snoopy plaster, so nice of her. anw its damn cute so i have decided to keep it. hee abit gross la since it was once on my big toe but i disinfected it le!:) hees. yep den xinhui ma'am called me over to try to teach the sec 2s footdrill. i seriously din even noe what i was supposed to do so i guessed i screwed up completely. anw she was really nice and patient and explained what i have done wrong. yep then changed to our full-u for our photoshoot. xa ma'am and ky ma'am were damn cute when sizing us up hehe. haha. yep den had interaction. the ma'ams told us it was our last formal activity and they will be passing out on 5june. -cries- can't believe it lorh. why must everything good and nice always come to an end? im seriously going to miss them loads, even more then i would ever miss obs times 5:(

yah went out with my squad to eat macs. think i am so lucky to have such wonderful squadmates:) i love you people! -gets mushy- yep missed macs and coke lyk anything la. i wanna replay the blissful moment where i can sink my teeth into a nice warm burger:) hahaha i seriously sound lyk some greedy pig. which i suppose i am. hahaah.

yep saw a nice pair of shoes at sportslink. and im soo totally gg to buy it. yay!=)

I MISS OBS! i miss my watch loads. sighh.

yep never mind. this is gonna be a long long entry. must recap what happen at obs mah:) nice nicee.

monday
reached school. waited. then the bus came to get us to punggol jetty. sat there for like howw longg waiting for the ferry(pathetic looking thing) to bring us to palau ubin. we were all laffing at this old man fishing there for like hours haha. obviously he cannot fish cause his line never touched the water. anw he was still there when we came back on friday. his line is still out of the water-.-" hahaha. me and dawn were laffing like shit la hee.

yah my watch name is da gama!! soo happy when i realised joanne was same watch as me la. den paula and yizhen and apphia also:) huixin was lyk how super lucky! she same watch as bernice and val lorhh. tians. but, DA GAMA IS STILL THE BEST! hehe. did some admin stuff, pitched tent, den lunched. den we kayaked!! was damn fun la. did capsize drills and stuff. den was time to cook dinner. burnt the stupid rice la. chao ta until cannot eat so we buried everything in the sand:p in the end my dinner consists of sardines, sardines and more sardines. yeeks. hahah. yah den that joanne kept egoing about her campbell soup. finee la.=P yah den bathed. sat down outside our store to put mosquito repellant den sleep.

tuesday
woke up at 0530 to find yuting and maisie staring at me. hmphh. disturb my beauty sleep=P haha. had breakfast. joanne made cold milo(which was nice but i won't admit it=P) and she started egoing about both her campbell soup AND the milo. sheeshhh=P played some games with our buddy watch! was quite fun except for the finding the tree part. eeech. lunched. den we learnt belaying. was quite fun also. then tata! the flying fox!!! was soooooo niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! my tians i really wanted to do it again lorhh. damn damn nicee:) at first me and dawn choo were like damn scared we bang into the rock wall at the end of the rope cause we are both quite light. heng never=P hehe. yah den while waitin for the others to do me, noelle, yizhen and aa were playing with stones at the stone pit. we played like everything we can think of lorh. 5 stones, building tower, then see who can throw further, see how can throw further with our left hand, who can skip the stones more times, who can aim into the climbing loop, who can get more stones into the helmets blah blahh blahhh. was dammn fun also hehe. yah den was dinner. i never burn the ricee ehhh!! ahhh applause pleasee! hehe=P so proud of myself man. -egoego- heh. pissed off with that stupid woman who poured baked beans all over me. arghh. shit her la hmphh. found out that we will be trekking tomorrow so had to pack our backpacks. scared stiff cause the bigs and nearly as big as me and definately heavier then me. tian ar.

wednesday
did rock climbing in the morning! damn fun also=) hehehe. lunched. then set off for our jungle trek. the bags were damn heavy at first la, but slowly you get use to it le its not soo bad. tot the journey wld be damn long but its about only 3km. yah so not so bad. reached the campsite, pitched tents, den cooked dinner. found out we have to trek to another campsite about 3km away and then kayak back from there. couldn't sleep so me and dawn and yinxi were chatting and watching the stars. nicee.

thurday
woke up damn early. then a whole group of us went to pee in the natural toilets. yucky experience la=P poor yanting was mopped by a whole load of red ants. yah trekked to where the 2 other watches are. saw enli and denise who were giving us tips la. apparently it was a nightmare for them kayaking through the mangrove swarmp.yah kayaking was damn tiring la. and my dear partner yuting! never knew she can be sooo nisy. hahhah. yah were singing the row row row your boat when we were kayaking. den she ask me what other boat songs there are and i said the titanic song. den we were both lyk choy choy choy we dun wana capsize! hahah damn farniee. okayy la yuting it was really damn nice kayaking with you kay:) you rock! yep. damn relieved to reach camp. saw huixin and chenise's groups waving at us at the jetty. cleaned the kayaks den made camp and everything la. hunted for our lost items. slept in bashas. not nice.

friday
woke up at 7- considered quite late le hee. hunted around for more of out lost stores and packed up. den went shopping for souveniors! bot a white polo shirt! soooo chio!! was damn sad to leave obs:( reached school-drank lime juice. den went with dawn, yinxi and joanne to redhill market to eat. talked about alot of things. yep den went home. happy:)

hahha wasnt kidding when i said its gg to be long.

really miss obs. no matter how much longer i blogged, i would never be able to cover all the minor little things that had happened during obs that had made obs extra fun and sweet.

joanne, maznah, maisie, yizhen, paula, yinghui, pangying, dawnchoo, noelle, apphia, yuting, simin, mengwai, zhengya and me!

da gama rocks

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